I am unable to sleep. The white noise of Waverly's oxygen condenser is a new and unknown sound. And I am so desperate to hear her breathing, that I think sleep will be elusive tonight.
I keep thinking about random things:
How sad I will be when I no longer have anything she has worn in my laundry basket. How some birthday dresses I ordered for her are on backorder and will arrive too late. How I don't want to move her wheelchair from our entryway.
And then I think about very real things:
How will I continue living my life in the same routine with only Oliver. How her absence is going to be ever present. That I may sleep in her bedroom forever.
I am going to climb into bed with her tonight. I want to hold her hand and feel her warmth. I want to kiss her cheeks and whisper in her ear.
I have already told her that we will be ok. I have told her that I understand she is oh so tired. I have told her that she can go when she is ready.
I asked her to send me signs that she is ok. To send reminders that she is ever present.
Waverly has always been a good listener.
Thinking of you and your family during this difficult time.
Lesley, mum to Sarah
So, with tears running down my cheeks, all I can say is that I am so very sorry for your family, it just plain and simple sucks.
I'm praying for your sweet family
thank you for sharing Wavey with us. She has touched many lives, I think about you all every day. When the time comes, there will be a candle burning for her in the middle of Europe.
You and Matt are amazing parents, Wavey and Oliver could not have chosen better.
Please give Wavey an extra kiss for me.
We lost our first born at six weeks of age due to a heart condition. While that does not compare to all that you have endured, we do know the pain and heartache of losing a child.
So many are praying for your family. Waverly has made an impact on many. She is a gift and a true ray of sunshine. May you all feel the hands of love wrap around you and heal your heart.
CL in Kansas
I pray today for strength for Waverly in her body and in her spirit: Strength to find whatever healing there is in this time and place, strength as she waits to come home to you when she is ready and You call her to be with You for eternity. I pray for courage for her family as they support her and love her and surround her in care.
Mostly, dear Lord, I pray for peace. Peace for Waverly in her body as the pain fades away, peace for her family and loved ones in their hearts as they wait with her, and peace for Waverly in her spirit as she finds her true peace in you. As in all places, help us know that you are here with us, granting your peace.
In the name of Christ, who taught us not to fear death and showed us beyond doubt that God will grant us victory over mortality through Him, I pray.
I'll always remember how I used to read to you outside in the front of the school and how Ms. Ling and I would help to teach you to walk around on your own. I always would look forward to that day of the week so that I could spend A half hour with Waverly and get to read to her and teach her new things.
Your friend, Robbie