Pancakes

Oliver loves pancakes. Going to diners for breakfast has been routine for our family. And Matt gifted me with an electric griddle a few years ago, so we could up our flap jack game. Purchasing real maple syrup is a necessity in our home - no Aunt Jemima or Log Cabin here.

I spent part of this afternoon unpacking Oliver's Real Food Blends from our supply company. Each month I receive a tower of boxes full of pureed food. Instead of having the boxes sit in our dining room until they were needed, I decided to move some things around in our kitchen. I cleared two shelves under our coffee supplies and squeezed in as many pouches as possible. Neat and tidy and organized, with each different meal in a separate plastic bin.

I was only left with one item to relocate. The electric griddle. As I opened cabinets to find space for the behemoth, I realized that I will most likely not be using it very much anymore. Blueberry pancake breakfasts no longer appeal to me. Oliver can't eat them anymore. 

I was overcome with the truth that I will never make him pancakes again. I won't see his fingers dyed purple from the blueberries, sticky from the syrup. This simple realization has knocked the air out of me. And I am heartbroken.

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Anonymous saidā€¦
I don't know if I have ever commented. I have followed you for years... I don't really have any words for you but, i wanted you to know someone is reading your words and sharing your sorrow.
Sharon in NSB, Florida
Dawnalouba saidā€¦
Matt and Shannon, I wish I had eloquent words of comfort for you. I don't. There is nothing that one could say or do to alleviate your pain. You both have traveled a path that I can't imagine. I will continue to pray for your sweet family as I have since the diagnoses. Much love! Lord bless you!!
Naomi Skena saidā€¦
Oh my goodness Shannon. My mama heart is broken for you. I'm so, so, so sorry for how brutally unfair this is. So many small things reflecting such a big hard horrible reality.

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