Hello 2010

I cannot believe another year is over.  Time is flying by so quickly.  I hate that.  I want the days to linger and months to feel like years.  But alas, that is not the case.  I have never been a huge new year celebrator.  I am not one for resolutions.  This year Matt is working late and the kids are asleep.  I am already under the blankets, ready for sleep.  I spent some time looking over the past year in photos, blog posts, videos and statuses.  We survived and in so many ways had a wonderful time doing it.  We made some amazing memories.  

It is always difficult for me to explain that I can savor moments with Waverly & Oliver and experience pure joy in them.  However, at the same time my heart is heavy with sadness.  I never feel as if I can adequately express both extremes honestly.  I am afraid I will sound insincere - faking happiness or putting on a "brave face".  Or I will wallow in sorrow and bring down all those around me with my gloom.  I hope I can continue this blog into the new year, being as honest as I can be in the midst of such turmoil.

Iit was a year full of incredible memories.  I cherish my time with the kids unlike ever before.  I appreciate the small things.  I am a very blessed mom to have had a full year with my 2 amazing children.

I am heading into 2010 with apprehension.  I have no idea what the year holds, but I know that we are going to take each day as it comes and thank God for another day.  Another day with the most incredible kids.  Another day to be a mommy.  Another day to hope for a miracle.

I hope you all have a wonderful New Year's Eve where ever you are.