It has been 4 weeks. Four weeks since my beautiful little girl drew her last breath. I think I am just now beginning to feel the weight of her death. My brain knows she is gone, but my heart is having a much more difficult time realizing it. All normal and natural responses to loss, but when it's your first time going through the process it can be confusing.
Matt and I attending a bereavement counseling session with Waverly's hospice agency. It was quite helpful at normalizing what we have been feeling. The counselor provided us with some literature and book recommendations that may he helpful as we navigate the grief process. We learned that grief is not linear nor predictable. Each person experiences loss differently and time will never heal, it just may soften the blow.
I haven't written at all since Waverly died because I know I am still too fragile to put to paper all the emotions swirling inside of me. I have made some notes and reminders, but I am unable to do much more. What used to be cathartic now feels agonizing.
I have learned a few things thus far on this journey. I love hearing Waverly's name. It is important for me to see and hear her name. It doesn't cause me pain, but rather brings a bit of light into the darkness. I have also found a tremendous amount of joy and comfort from hearing how Waverly has inspired *you*. It reminds me that her sweet spirit continues to be alive on this earth, bringing beauty and acceptance to those who need it the most.
Please reach out. If you mentioned wanting to get together or bring a meal, please take the initiative and contact us. It helps to have some ideas in mind to take the pressure off of me and just allow me to be with you. Follow my lead. I may want to talk and cry or I may simply want to hear all that is going on in your life. Ask how I am doing. Say Waverly's name. And know that I will offer grace. I don't know how best to journey this new road, but I need friends who will be by my side along the way.
Thank you to all who have offered support to our family. I am just now beginning the process of sending thank you cards out. Forgive my tardiness and know we are grateful for everything.