I cannot believe another year is over. Time is flying by so quickly. I hate that. I want the days to linger and months to feel like years. But alas, that is not the case. I have never been a huge new year celebrator. I am not one for resolutions. This year Matt is working late and the kids are asleep. I am already under the blankets, ready for sleep. I spent some time looking over the past year in photos, blog posts, videos and statuses. We survived and in so many ways had a wonderful time doing it. We made some amazing memories.
It is always difficult for me to explain that I can savor moments with Waverly & Oliver and experience pure joy in them. However, at the same time my heart is heavy with sadness. I never feel as if I can adequately express both extremes honestly. I am afraid I will sound insincere - faking happiness or putting on a "brave face". Or I will wallow in sorrow and bring down all those around me with my gloom. I hope I can continue this blog into the new year, being as honest as I can be in the midst of such turmoil.
Iit was a year full of incredible memories. I cherish my time with the kids unlike ever before. I appreciate the small things. I am a very blessed mom to have had a full year with my 2 amazing children.
I am heading into 2010 with apprehension. I have no idea what the year holds, but I know that we are going to take each day as it comes and thank God for another day. Another day with the most incredible kids. Another day to be a mommy. Another day to hope for a miracle.
I hope you all have a wonderful New Year's Eve where ever you are.