Wish

The Make-a-Wish trip was quite emotional for me.  When we went to Disney World last year, Matt spent most of the week feeling sad and depressed.  This trip was my turn.  I couldn't believe we were a MaW family.  I took Waverly on Soarin', a great ride that simulates flying around CA sites.  I cried through the entire ride, so sad that she was never going to have the opportunity to see so many of those beautiful places.  I didn't know how to respond to those people who said things like, "they are going to remember this trip for the rest of their lives".  I looked around at all of the other families and I was jealous.  I wanted to shake them and remind them just how fortunate they are.

Waverly was different on this trip, too.  She was much more catatonic than our previous trips.  She didn't smile or giggle very often...really only when meeting the characters.  Otherwise she was fairly sedate.  I was hoping to see more expression and enjoyment.  I was sad to see her reactions fading.

I was able to enjoy the week.  I had a wonderful time.  But the sadness kept creeping into my heart.  I wish things were different.