I have been feeling so sad the past few days. My emotions have been right at the surface and any small thing can cause the tears to flow. I received a report from Children's Hospital and it was the first one to list Waverly as 7 years old. I cried. Oliver attended a birthday part yesterday afternoon. When we left, I cried.
Even preparing for Christmas has been difficult for me. I haven't decorated or put up a tree yet. I just have had zero desire to celebrate. And the kids are unaware that anything special is coming. I think that it part of it. I am not sure why I should even bother.
And then tonight, I read about a friend. Her daughter passed away 3 years ago tomorrow. She had Sanfilippo. She was a beautiful little girl - only 12 years old.
I was reminded that I am fortunate enough to have Waverly & Oliver here with me now. It is okay to be sad. It is sad. However, I need to take advantage of the short time I have been given with them. That means creating memories and moments with them, so I can hold onto them in the years to come.
The sadness is still intense right now. The tears are flowing as I type. But I am blessed to go kiss my babies good night, smooth back their hair and pull up their blankets to keep them warm on this wintery night.